Day 39

Day 39

Wow! What a struggle yesterday was!  I think because the end is near, I craved everything yesterday.  My stomach growled all day. Note to self, don’t watch the food network on days like yesterday. It is not good motivation! 

Other than a few cravings, it was a good day.  Some of the goals I set are getting easier to maintain. I still have much work to do to achieve them, but progress is being made.

While doing my Bible study this morning, I had two big revelations. First, the word “in” is used an awful lot in Ephesians. Second, I realized there are two words in the Bible that are awesome. What are they? “but God” How many times in the Bible should we as human race been destroyed by our own wickedness, but God didn’t.  I deserve Hell, but God sent his only begotten son. I can’t do enough to earn Gods love, but I can’t do enough to lose God’s love.  I have stumbled and fallen so many times during this fast, but God has picked me up and set me back on the path.  I don’t know it there are more beautiful words in the Bible.  How much different would the world be, if God treated me like I treated others. Nobody is writing about “but Gus”.  The world wouldn’t have lasted long if God was like me. 

God love what is on the inside. Our outward actions don’t really matter.  I know lots of people who are nice on the outside but mean on the inside.  Outward appearance can be faked.  A heart for God cannot. Adam and Eve tried to hide from God after they sinned.  God knew what they did and where they were.  How much grace and mercy do I show people who offend me?  What if God showed me the same amount of grace and mercy?  I would be in Hell right now.

I am beginning to believe I am trying to do too much in the world. Maybe I need to do less to do more.

My prayer, Lord let me show those around me the same grace and mercy as you have shown me. Amen.